Fighting with loved ones

The one thing that has got to be the worst thing ever is fighting with the one you love, especially if you both are hard headed. Today I got some really bad news that my mom was transported down to another hospital because her heart test turned out not so good. So once I got this message all I wanted to do was call my man and let him know, knowing that he couldn't do anything, but I was just hoping for some comfort. My family has always been really healthy and I really didn't know how to take my mom being sick. So I called him because he was not working today and he didn't answer the phone so I called him back again and then again so try and get his attention to answer the phone because I really needed to just talk to him. He has always been my rock and I just needed that from him. So the next thing I get from him is a text message asking me "what", so I quickly call him back thinking that he was right there by his phone. He didn't answer again so I left him a nasty message about my mom and said thanks alot. Well then later he called me at work and I was busy and he said to call him when I wasn't busy, but to be quite honest I didn't really want to talk to him, he let me down. Well then I went on my lunch and texted him saying that I really didn't want to talk to him right now and he gets all mad at me say that I was being ridiculous. Maybe I was but I was scared and let down so that didn't matter to me. So I decided to talk to him, cause I wanted to find out why he didn't answer his phone. I told him that didn't he think that something was wrong since I called him three times right in a row, I don't do that normally. He said he didn't think anything of it because he was busy talking to his brother on the phone. I said couldn't you of clicked over to maybe find out why I was calling this much and he said that he couldn't do that either because then he would lose his call to his brother. He knew that my mom was going to be having a heart test today, so I guess I thought that maybe I would be on his mind and not his brother. I really don't know what to think or what to even say to him. I am very hurt and confused. I guess I am writing this so that maybe just maybe it would help me figure out what to do. I know that I should let it go but it is very hard too, knowing that he couldn't put me first for the day. I don't know maybe that is being selffish now.

Well on a good note my mom is going to be able to leave the hospital tomorrow and should be to her old self in 3-4 days. They put something into her artery to open it up and stop the blockage that was causing her pain. She ended up having 95% blockage in one of her arteries, thank goodness it wasn't anything more. And thank goodness that she went and got is checked out when she did. I took the day off tomorrow and I am going to spend the day with my mom and help her get around. I can't wait to see her!!